Recognizing Blessing in Your Curse
I was reminded over the holidays of my limitations and weaknesses. There’s nothing like family to pull out the “best” in us, is there? I love spending time with family and friends, but as an introvert, it is also draining. Over the years I have learned that I need to pace myself and even purposely schedule alone time during busy, social weekends. It’s how I recharge. I have learned a lot about my limitations, but over Christmas I found I still have much to learn. As I rarely see my family, it was difficult to allow myself time in seclusion. After several days with family, I became exhausted and began shutting down socially. Needless to say, that led to misunderstandings with family members.
Time after time over the years I have been frustrated by the degree of my introversion. At times it’s resulted in hot, angry tears or in tears of grief. I’ve asked God why He created me this way, since He desires us to be in relationship with one another. Why would He design within me a need to be anti-relational? This line of thought caused me to view my introversion as a curse. Only recently have I learned otherwise.
God has been showing me that our weaknesses are also our strengths, and our strengths can also be our weaknesses. How does that make sense? Let’s take my introverted tendencies as an example. My need for seclusion is a social weakness, but it’s also what makes me great at studying and teaching. I enjoy thinking deeply, figuring out puzzles in scripture, and how passages work and fit together. If I weren’t an introvert, studying and writing would be very difficult.
Recently, I met a brilliant scholar and author. He was very open about his weakness. He has diagnosed OCD which impairs him socially and in life in general. However, it’s also the same condition that causes him to excel brilliantly in his research and work. His weakness is his strength.
We can also see examples of this in the Bible. Let’s consider King David. He was a brilliant poet and mighty warrior. He was passionate about life and God, and allowed himself to freely express his emotions. This is a strength. We have many beautiful examples of David being raw and open before the Lord, pouring out his heart in grief or in praise. He fought Goliath due to this passion. David’s strength was also his weakness. His passion also led him into adultery and his might into murder.
Our strength can be our weakness.
Our weakness can be our strength.
What is one of your strengths? Have you ever considered how it could be a weakness? Don’t fall prey to the idea that it is always a strength. Recognizing your strength as a weakness upholds it as an asset. Denying that a strength can lead to weakness makes one susceptible to damage.
Perhaps your strength is your competitive edge. Your competitiveness is what spurs you on to succeed and excel. It is a great strength that drives you to be the best of the best. In this strength also consider, is your competitiveness hamstringing relationships? As in driving, use your competitive gift to keep your eyes on the road, but regularly check the gauges and mirrors to ensure relationships aren’t suffering.
Maybe you are personable and outgoing. You have the gift of making people feel welcome and included. You love being around people and interacting with them. Do you find silence and stillness difficult? There is a beauty and knowledge of self and God that comes with silence. Nothing precious is gained easily. Remember, God Himself says (Ps 46:10), “Be still, and know that I am God.”
Take some time to think about how your strengths might be weaknesses and your weaknesses might be strengths. I’ve found that my greatest weakness is also my greatest strength. What I once viewed as a curse is also a blessing. God, indeed, works in mysterious ways.
Looking into God’s mysterious ways this week:
1 Corinthians 12:12-27
Luke 10:38-42
2 Corinthians 4:7-18
1 Corinthians 1:17-2:5
2 Corinthians 12:5-10
Originally posted January 27, 2020.
Heather this post deals with a significant part of my journey. My preferred function is that of an introvert, but find myself in conflict with myself frequently. I recall the concept articulated by Paul, the Apostle, ‘not doing that which I know to be of value, while doing that doesn’t create value.’ It takes less focus and energy to over-function as an introvert than to ‘stretch’ myself into functioning as an extrovert. Can it be that this is a universal challenge for all human beings? Launching into the unknown or uncomfortable is perhaps the place for growth.
I appreciate how you pulled out the concept: “over-function as an introvert.” It highlights the tendency we all experience to remain in our comfort-zones. Yes, I do think this is a universal challenge! It may look different for each person, but the basic struggle is the same. It is difficult to stretch and challenge ourselves, especially into the unknown and uncomfortable. I’m so glad you shared, Russ.
For me, part of the conflict is knowing my weakness and knowing I cannot change it. Yes, I can put myself out there and meet people and be sociable. However, no matter how much I try, I cannot change the fact that it exhausts me. I can stretch myself, but I have limits. In the midst of this conflict I have to chose to love myself for how God created me, weakness and all.
Heather, such a good way of looking at things. I am so opposite you and I respect and envy people that can be good students and good teachers, willing to take time to really study deeply and learn and then teach. I suffer from FOMO (fear of missing out) 🙂 I am constantly on the go to make sure I fit in all I think/I feel led to/I want/ I need to do. It is my happy place and also my nemesis. I imagine the world has room for all of us and I pray God continues to show me how to use my strengths for good and to be clear on what my weaknesses are and live according to His glory.
I love how you wrote, “It is my happy place and also my nemesis.” That captures the feeling so well! I am thankful that we all have a variety of strengths and weaknesses so we can lean on each other. We truly are the body of Christ, all contributing to the whole in our unique function. Great thoughts, Larkellen!